Too Many Goodbyes

Too many funerals, too many tears Lost my brothers, lost my friends, lost my fears No warning, no goodbye, just silence and pain Trying to make sense of the lives that remain First job you showed me the ropes Always joking cracking those jokes We chased the light just trying to cope But you were fighting demons out of sight Drugs, drives, always sharp and wise Now I am left with just the hope That somewhere you are free not in pain But I replay the last time we spoke in vain Too Many Goodbyes, too many names Lost my brothers, lost my flames No warning just the void left inside Now I am left with the pain and the pride Three amigos laughing loud Now I am left to scream into the crowd You left with a smile not a frown But I am still stuck in this town You kept us high and light Even when the world felt tight We drove, we joked, we chased the sun But fate said your race was run You left us with your grin Now I am trying to find my way within Circumstances rough but you stayed true Now I am left with memories and you Too Many Goodbyes, too many names Lost my brothers, lost my flames No warning just the void left inside Now I am left with the pain and the pride Always wild fought a lot But blood is thicker we never lost our spot Grew up you stayed a little wild But family is family no matter the style Then one night revenge came down Lured by lies beaten to the ground Back broke, life snuffed out fast Now I am left with memories of the past We grew up close shared every game Adventures no shame As adults you faded away Mental health took its toll each day Addiction clung from kid to grown Fentanyl in your veins you are gone Never dangerous, always loved Family meant everything that is what you proved Caught up with shadows no way out Beaten to the Edge left in doubt Drugs finished what violence began Another family member lost, another broken plan Too Many Goodbyes, too many names Lost my brothers, lost my flames No warning just the void left inside Now I am left with the pain and the pride Every loss a piece of me Fragments scattered can you see Memories haunt but I am Still Here Carrying their weight year after year Though the pain cuts deep I will not break Their love is the strength that I take In every goodbye a part remains Their spirits live through my veins Too Many Goodbyes, too many names Lost my brothers, lost my flames No warning just the void left inside Now I am left with the pain and the pride Too many funerals, too many tears Lost my brothers, lost my fears No warning, no goodbye, just silence and pain Trying to make sense of the lives that remain