Butterfly

All of these wings in my past they were flappin’ out of my grasp Every time they flew away they were knockin’ down what wouldn’t last Thought that I was gettin’ wrecked really I was gettin’ set All the loves I couldn’t catch That’s my Butterfly effect Led me right here to myself wiped the dust off my reflection Every storm they left inside me just rewired my direction Every almost every exit every us that never met Yeah the ones I never kept That’s my Butterfly effect I was that quiet kid, wide eyed, white knuckled Tryna hide panic behind light chuckles Dive headfirst in a high tide struggle Redraw my lines any time your sky shuffled Copy your playlists, mirror your slang Switch up my cadence to sit in your frame Didn’t even notice I was missin’ my name Tryna twist into shape for a temporary flame You were a wingbeat, small shake, big break Had me hydroplanin’ on a slick heartbreak Chasin’ validation like a drip I can’t shake Hands off the wheel in a car with no brakes You dipped, I called it, I’m not worth shit Played that script ’til the plot got sick Now I sift through the chips and I spot that glitch Every time you left I got more authentic Wild how a soft step off my porch Felt like the whole sky got scorched Back then I swear I thought I was cursed Now I look back like Damn that’s the best thing that happened first All of these wings in my past they were flappin’ out of my grasp Every time they flew away they were knockin’ down what wouldn’t last Thought that I was gettin’ wrecked really I was gettin’ set All the loves I couldn’t catch That’s my Butterfly effect Led me right here to myself wiped the dust off my reflection Every storm they left inside me just rewired my direction Every almost every exit every us that never met Yeah the ones I never kept That’s my Butterfly effect I spent whole nights runnin’ why me loops Mind in a maze with the high beams mute Tryna read lines you were hidin’ between Spinnin’ each scene like I’m tied to the noose But a slight breeze in the right season Can rewrite meanings in the lives we’re leadin’ Tiny decisions that you make without thinkin’ Turn into quakes when the ground starts sinkin’ Door slam, cold face, we should slow down All of that static was a home grown sound Back then every silence felt so loud Now I hear patterns I can’t undrown You were a quick text then a ghost then a pattern I was obsessed with the loss not the ladder Now I connect every step to the matter Each time you vanished my voice got louder ’Cause If you don’t bounce then I don’t pause If I don’t pause then I don’t talk If I don’t crack then I don’t spot The fact I was shrinkin’ just to hold your spot So yeah you were just passin’ through But the aftershock shook every single room Thought it was the end of everything I knew Turns out it was my exit from a smaller view All of these wings in my past they were flappin’ out of my grasp Every time they flew away they were knockin’ down what wouldn’t last Thought that I was gettin’ wrecked really I was gettin’ set All the loves I couldn’t catch That’s my Butterfly effect Led me right here to myself wiped the dust off my reflection Every storm they left inside me just rewired my direction Every almost every exit every us that never met Yeah the ones I never kept That’s my Butterfly effect If you’d have stayed I’d still be shrinkin’ for attention Bitin’ back the truth just to keep you from flinchin’ Now I talk to my reflection like I got you that’s a given ’Cause losin’ all the wrong ones is what made me start livin’ So here’s to the wings that left To the calls that never sent back To the futures that we penciled in Then crossed out when the ink cracked I don’t hate you, I don’t want you back You were just weather on a longer track Tiny little tremors that you’ll probably forget But they shook me awake and I’m not sleepin’ again That’s my Butterfly effect